So this year I’ve already had two surgeries and spent time in two hospitals, plus had plenty of physiotherapy. But am I done? Why no of course I’m not. It’s only September after all! In a little over a week I’ll see my third specialist of the year, a dermatologist, who will look at a suspicious mole on my back and probably will have to have the mole removed fairly quickly (so says my family doc anyway). I’m quietly freaking out about the possibility of melanoma. If you don’t know already (I didn’t until I spent more time than needed reviewing google) melanoma is the most dangerous form of skin cancer. And I’m at a fairly high risk, given that I’m fair, have burned severely in the past, and have lots of moles. Now I have a mole that while I’ve had it a long time, appears as if it might be getting larger and is definitely getting itchy. And it bled a couple of time – but that might have been due to an injury. My family doctor says they will almost certainly remove it with wide margins and then test and hope for the best.
Can we all keep our fingers crossed that it’s nothing? Cause I’m feeling close to my limits for health issues this year…even though I know how much luckier I am than so many people. And can I say how thankful I am that at least the financial consequences of all this medical mania aren’t too crazy? Other than the lost time from work, especially with the broken arm, it’s not like I have to pay to stay at the hospital or do follow ups with the surgeons. I’m working on feeling grateful for all the things that are right, instead of feeling down and fearful of the things I can’t control at this point. I think I need to try the apple a day thing. Maybe several apples a day, just to be sure.